Fear said I wish you would…
As parents we live in a state of almost constant fear.
Fear that holds us locked in our miseries large and small. We pray for what we don’t want and wish at the rest. Sometime as I tip toe toward something bigger dragging the nagging dread of what I might miss, the burden seems too heavy to budge.
Fear dances around us while the music dies and the lights shine somewhere else. I wish I might do something that courage could be proud of as I dream of a consequence free world. If I were a thousand different and better people I would be fearless for sure. My words would always ring of truth and I would doubt no more. My mom was a pillar when I was three and daddy was smart, and cool and rich;invisible was he but I knew these things then.
One night when I was young and beautiful an important woman dressed in success called me over to her table and handed me an opportunity. Fear said I wish you would and I never did. Walking away thirty years older I knew I missed it and it would have been grand.
Fear is a liar and a thief and if we are not careful to cash in those lost sacred once in a lifetime opportunities regrets will pile up like interest on a sears card.
Of all the things that I have done in my life the regrets belong to the what if’s.
Yes Fear is our partner in this and in the end we all must do it anyway.
